Friday, February 27, 2015
an honest request
so the father of a demon possessed boy makes an interesting statement in today's reading. "I do believe... help my unbelief." on the surface, this seems to contradict itself. but being human, we all know exactly what he means.
he has come to Jesus for help. so he does believe in Him, or he wouldn't have come. but he's not 100% sure that Jesus can help his son. and, I think most importantly, the REASON he has trouble believing that Jesus can do it is because he wants it so badly.
haven't we all been there? when there was something you wanted SO BAD, it made it hard to ask? you struggled with belief... not necessarily that God CAN do what you want... but you want it so bad that you feel ashamed asking Him... and you wonder whether He WILL grant your request.
being a single person who really wants to be a married person, I struggle with this very issue regarding finding my future wife. I will be going through my prayer time, thanking Him for things and interceding for my friends... and suddenly I get shy when it comes time to ask Him to bring me and my wife together.
I believe, or I wouldn't be prayer walking every day. I believe, and that's why I do believe that He's calling me to marriage. but ... I still have to ask Him to help my unbelief. because I want it so badly, I have trouble sometimes trusting Him to answer me.
Lord, I believe. help my unbelief.