Sunday, August 9, 2015

whose decision?

Today's readings: Ezra 8:21-9:15, 1 Cor 5:1-13, Psalm 31:1-8, Prov 21:1-2

Ezra makes some sacrifices, and Paul says to hand a sinning believer over to Satan. I think I'll focus on the Proverb today.

So Proverb 21:1 says that the heart of the King is like a stream of water. God directs it wherever He wants it to go.

Today I realized that I've been resisting that direction. I'm no king, of course... but I want to be like that king, and let God direct me where He wants me to go. That's how I can cooperate with His will.

But today I found myself trying to impose my will on my direction. Instead of seeking His direction. It was a simple example, but it clicked the lesson home. I was trying to cross the street during my prayer walk, and a ton of cars came along just then and I had to wait to cross. I started to get impatient, but then I just kind of settled into what was happening, and didn't try to force my will on the situation. Peace resulted.

When I was younger, I had fewer presuppositions about how things should be. So it was easier for me to conform to His will. Now that I'm a little older, I have more presuppositions. I expect things to conform to my will. And I think sometimes I try to force my will against His will.

God, please help me to conform my will to Yours, instead of trying to get my way all of the time.